This is Mr Orange , i dont know how this is going to come out as my phone is being weird, but im at work as usual. Its strange how even though i dont like my job i feel less useless on the days that i work, even though i only have two days off a week i always feel completely useless when doing nothing much like reading or watching a movie, i always feel like i should be studying or doing something worthwhile like curing cancer or something. I should probably take Lamapigs advice and write my book every day and it will probably be finished in no time, then it will become a best seller and i will be rich, then i will use the money to make my film which nobody will watch then i will be poor again. Thats the plan.
What the book is going to be about is about all the things i have studied over the last ten years combining modern psychology, spirituality, ancient psychology, Taoism, buddhism, new age techniques, shamanism and energy work and how that relates to the modern man and their health. Sounds weird i guess but i think it will read better than it sounds.
Wednesday, 6 February 2013
Friday, 1 February 2013
Lamapig: Freebies, Free Samples (Singapore) only
Lamapig: Saturday, 2/2/2013
Free samples!! Only available in Singapore though, I have been getting sample recently so I thought to share the good with everyone ^^
Free samples!! Only available in Singapore though, I have been getting sample recently so I thought to share the good with everyone ^^
My favorite is HadaLabo, very amazing products and I had a few samples myself hehe. Lip ice is amazing too, I have received the sample last night (only take less than a day to delivered :O) which i going to save for my trip to Mr. Grey (blush)
Most of the link, is from facebook. Just need to like their facebook page and input your delivery address and wait for your freebies. Yes! It's that simple, if you doesn't like the alert that posted on your page in facebook just choose "ONLY ME" instead of Public when the window appear.
Enjoy the freebies :D Love - Lamapig
(Complete the quiz and get free sample, Answer is : EU-Patented ABA Technology, Nicotinamide and Zinc PCA
(Only on the 10th & 25th of each month)
All the links I have checked and retrieve past few days, and it all works (for now). Guaranteed safe too :)
Thursday, 31 January 2013
Bad Restaurant - BBQ Chicken at Tiong Bahru Plaza
Thursday 31/01/2013
Lamapig
We went to Tiong Bahru Plaza, such a hot weather so just need an air-conditioned cafe for a cup of coffee and maybe share an ice cream :P
Went to look around in the Plaza but however there isn't much cafe indoors, so we ended up on the highest floor next to the Golden Village cinema. The restaurant called BBQ Chicken. It's completely emptied, apart from a lady with her laptop on one of the seat near to the entrance.
So we browse through the menu near the entrance and decide to have a drink there.
Ordered Ice latte for myself and my sister decided to try Mint Root beer.
We also ordered an ice - cream sundae to share too. (naughty)
After our order is taken, I asked the waiter for 2 glasses of ice water.
Waiter: "We don't serve water."
Me: "Just tap water will do"
Waiter: "We don't give any water at all, sorry"
Me: "Hmm oh ok"
Waiter took the menu on the table and about to went off...
Me: "It's fine for not serving even tap water, but from what I know we having ice-cream and restaurant normally provides water when you having dessert. So i felt it's a bit strange this restaurant doesn't do that"
Waiter: "We never does that, it's always been the policy. Even if you have a proper meal, we doesn't give water too"
I nodded, as I understand it's just their company policy so I decide to just ignore it.
However the drinks arrived, a waitress holding two glasses of drink and said "Who's this?"and lift up the latte on one hand. So I said is mine, she then put both glasses of drink on our table because we are so thirsty we drink it immediately.
The latte taste so nasty actually makes me feel sick, it comes with a scoop of ice-cream on top. Taste like water with cream and no taste of coffee at all, and bits of coffee powder floating inside my mouth.
I'm not a fussy person or whatsoever, but that coffee is really really undrinkable. I turned to my sister, she had a unpleasant expression. "What's wrong?" I asked. She didn't say anything but push her drink towards me for a taste. I took a sip, and was shocked! Taste really really horrible! It's not mint root beer, it's Darlie water! (brand of a toothpaste) and have no fizzy or any taste of root beer.
I told my sister, I can't make myself to drink it, lets just go. Even we are so thirsty, we can barely take a proper sip. That is how bad it was. I can't imagine how can a restaurant able to prepared such a bad drink able to make edible food? -___-
I press the service button, the waitress came. The waitress is quite nice, I told her nicely.. This taste really bad, I would like to cancel my ice cream order as I have to leave. I also explained how it tasted like water and toothpaste. She apologized and said she will let the manager knows.
The Manager of BBQ Chicken at Tiong Bahru Plaza.
A chinese lady, which is the lady with the laptop is the manager.
The waitress explained to her, I am standing right behind the waitress. The manager had a very "What?!" expression.
So I then said "This latte really taste like cream water, had no coffee at all, and this mint root beer tasted like toothpaste. Sorry but we can't drink it."
Few seconds later, she stood up and completely ignored us. Walk towards the coffee machine and start mumbling while checking the coffee machine. The whole time she didn't say a single word to us.
The waitress still turning back to me and say "Give me a moment" so I nodded with a smile and say "It's fine, I just doesn't want it anymore and we got to go." Waitress look at the manager, the manager turned back and faced her and nodded her head. So waitress gets the meaning and apologize to me.
The whole time, the manager did not say a single word. To be honest I only wish to explain my point why I'm not having the drink and as a manager in the store, you should at least accept constructive criticism and obviously she is the kind of person who think she's always right. I felt sorry for her, as constructive criticism wasn't supposed to be nasty but it should be helping you realized something you didn't before.
Anyway this is the bad experiences I had on that day. I went to look online of the review in BBQ Chicken at Tiong Bahru Plaza. I'm not surprised the bad reviews by other but I am surprised to know this individual branch is the only franchised out of other BBQ chicken restaurant in Singapore.
However, Chinese New Year around the corner. I hope everyone get the shopping ready. ^^
Hope Mr. Grey will post something soon :(
Love Lamapig
Lamapig
We went to Tiong Bahru Plaza, such a hot weather so just need an air-conditioned cafe for a cup of coffee and maybe share an ice cream :P
Went to look around in the Plaza but however there isn't much cafe indoors, so we ended up on the highest floor next to the Golden Village cinema. The restaurant called BBQ Chicken. It's completely emptied, apart from a lady with her laptop on one of the seat near to the entrance.
So we browse through the menu near the entrance and decide to have a drink there.
Ordered Ice latte for myself and my sister decided to try Mint Root beer.
We also ordered an ice - cream sundae to share too. (naughty)
After our order is taken, I asked the waiter for 2 glasses of ice water.
Waiter: "We don't serve water."
Me: "Just tap water will do"
Waiter: "We don't give any water at all, sorry"
Me: "Hmm oh ok"
Waiter took the menu on the table and about to went off...
Me: "It's fine for not serving even tap water, but from what I know we having ice-cream and restaurant normally provides water when you having dessert. So i felt it's a bit strange this restaurant doesn't do that"
Waiter: "We never does that, it's always been the policy. Even if you have a proper meal, we doesn't give water too"
I nodded, as I understand it's just their company policy so I decide to just ignore it.
However the drinks arrived, a waitress holding two glasses of drink and said "Who's this?"and lift up the latte on one hand. So I said is mine, she then put both glasses of drink on our table because we are so thirsty we drink it immediately.
The latte taste so nasty actually makes me feel sick, it comes with a scoop of ice-cream on top. Taste like water with cream and no taste of coffee at all, and bits of coffee powder floating inside my mouth.
I'm not a fussy person or whatsoever, but that coffee is really really undrinkable. I turned to my sister, she had a unpleasant expression. "What's wrong?" I asked. She didn't say anything but push her drink towards me for a taste. I took a sip, and was shocked! Taste really really horrible! It's not mint root beer, it's Darlie water! (brand of a toothpaste) and have no fizzy or any taste of root beer.
I told my sister, I can't make myself to drink it, lets just go. Even we are so thirsty, we can barely take a proper sip. That is how bad it was. I can't imagine how can a restaurant able to prepared such a bad drink able to make edible food? -___-
I press the service button, the waitress came. The waitress is quite nice, I told her nicely.. This taste really bad, I would like to cancel my ice cream order as I have to leave. I also explained how it tasted like water and toothpaste. She apologized and said she will let the manager knows.
The Manager of BBQ Chicken at Tiong Bahru Plaza.
A chinese lady, which is the lady with the laptop is the manager.
The waitress explained to her, I am standing right behind the waitress. The manager had a very "What?!" expression.
So I then said "This latte really taste like cream water, had no coffee at all, and this mint root beer tasted like toothpaste. Sorry but we can't drink it."
Few seconds later, she stood up and completely ignored us. Walk towards the coffee machine and start mumbling while checking the coffee machine. The whole time she didn't say a single word to us.
The waitress still turning back to me and say "Give me a moment" so I nodded with a smile and say "It's fine, I just doesn't want it anymore and we got to go." Waitress look at the manager, the manager turned back and faced her and nodded her head. So waitress gets the meaning and apologize to me.
The whole time, the manager did not say a single word. To be honest I only wish to explain my point why I'm not having the drink and as a manager in the store, you should at least accept constructive criticism and obviously she is the kind of person who think she's always right. I felt sorry for her, as constructive criticism wasn't supposed to be nasty but it should be helping you realized something you didn't before.
Anyway this is the bad experiences I had on that day. I went to look online of the review in BBQ Chicken at Tiong Bahru Plaza. I'm not surprised the bad reviews by other but I am surprised to know this individual branch is the only franchised out of other BBQ chicken restaurant in Singapore.
However, Chinese New Year around the corner. I hope everyone get the shopping ready. ^^
Hope Mr. Grey will post something soon :(
Love Lamapig
Ikoi Japanese Restaurant
Lamapig: Friday 01/02/2013
Went out with my sister to celebrate her birthday yesterday, had some good experiences and bad experiences.
I have my good experiences in Ikoi Japanese Restaurant at Miramar Hotel.
My bad experiences from BBQ Chicken at Tiong Bahru Plaza
Good Experiences
My sister and I had reservation in IKOI japanese restaurant at Miramar Hotel.
This is one of our favorite restaurant ever, where I can proudly say it's the best japanese food in Singapore. Oh as I had japanese food even across Europe, none of them is even near to the standard we can get from Ikoi.
First time i tried this restaurant was about 10 years ago.. As I first went with my ex-bf from Singapore.
After I split up with my ex, and left to UK. I never been for like 4 years. Then I came back with my ex-husband & sister 3 years ago as my sister is still a frequent regular they recognize her immediately and they are shock to see me as I look a lot different. It's nice they remembered me,
It is a buffet cost about $30 for lunch, where a decent menu to order from. Including Sashimi (all sorts), yakitori, shishamo, tempura (all sorts), huge range of sushi and side dishes. Every single one of them is freshly made upon ordered, and waitress will ask how many pieces you like too ^^.
Complimentary - Salmon sashimi appeitizer, mini hot pot, soup in a teapot (that is amazing). I have took some pictures below.
Went out with my sister to celebrate her birthday yesterday, had some good experiences and bad experiences.
I have my good experiences in Ikoi Japanese Restaurant at Miramar Hotel.
My bad experiences from BBQ Chicken at Tiong Bahru Plaza
Good Experiences
My sister and I had reservation in IKOI japanese restaurant at Miramar Hotel.
This is one of our favorite restaurant ever, where I can proudly say it's the best japanese food in Singapore. Oh as I had japanese food even across Europe, none of them is even near to the standard we can get from Ikoi.
First time i tried this restaurant was about 10 years ago.. As I first went with my ex-bf from Singapore.
After I split up with my ex, and left to UK. I never been for like 4 years. Then I came back with my ex-husband & sister 3 years ago as my sister is still a frequent regular they recognize her immediately and they are shock to see me as I look a lot different. It's nice they remembered me,
It is a buffet cost about $30 for lunch, where a decent menu to order from. Including Sashimi (all sorts), yakitori, shishamo, tempura (all sorts), huge range of sushi and side dishes. Every single one of them is freshly made upon ordered, and waitress will ask how many pieces you like too ^^.
Complimentary - Salmon sashimi appeitizer, mini hot pot, soup in a teapot (that is amazing). I have took some pictures below.
California Handroll
Entrance - Right from lobby
Complimentary appetizer
Left - Complimentary soup in pot which is my favorite
Right - California Maki (Reverse roll)
Fresh Sashimi
Yakitori (Chicken Skewer)
The menu :O
Amazing customer service unlike other buffet style restaurant.
E.g many buffet restaurant (Self service) type, when there is those expensive stuff like prawns, oyster etc tray is normally emptied by the time you get to the counter after the big crowds. Which won't be top up till later, as the more frequent they replenish, the faster it went, the profit will be lesser. I don't enjoy buffet much, as I doesn't like to queue or squeeze for food and I'm not a big eater so it's a waste of money x.x
However in Ikoi it is freshly made upon order, it's fresh and short waiting time too. Waitress always make sure they asked you how many pieces you like to have and all happy to serve you no matter how crowded it is :)
Advanced booking needed, and you may request Tatami seats too. Good for family and romantic couples.
Valentines day coming soon, if any viewer looking for nice places to go and your partner love japanese food. This will be amazing. Price range around dinner is $38 ++
Tuesday, 29 January 2013
So that's the way It is.
Lamapig: Tuesday 29/01/2013
It's Lamapig again, not a surprised I believed.
Just another day to be honest I doesn't know what to say today.
I have done the layout template, finally. Hope he likes it.
Also include a message in chinese. Firstly is because it's more original, secondly is because no one understand as meant to be a secret of what this blog is for.
Been listening to the radio, one of my favorite actor, Jordan Chan. Where it's announced his wife is due for their second child. They decided to named him "Xiao Chun Zhi" from his original name Chen Xiao Chun.
It's very sweet hearing that news and the name is really funny & cute. Just their style...
Hearing that news, I was smiling feeling so happy for them.. and sour at the same time.
I have always respect the style of this couple, as they doesn't care about the media and what others say about them. Doesn't worry anything that doesn't concerned them and always so in love with each other..
They always so playful and cheerful with each other and not worrying so much. I always try to be that way, that is why I always being called silly.. I wasn't silly but just think it's better to be who you are and be happy with your life and worries that came later can be resolved.
Start to feel so happy for them, and looking back at what I achieve,
After seeing these picture, I then realize
I felt this is something I can never reach....
Deep down I knew it aren't going to happen
But I doesn't know why everytime i felt like giving up,
Something push me back in...
I'm really tired, feeling I probably shouldn't try anymore.
Someone say if you love someone, you shouldn't said it.
If you really work hard, you shouldn't said it.
And I knew
If one day I stopped talking, there will be nothing left in the conversation between us.
If one day I have run of out jokes to say, there will be no laughter left.
Everyday I asked if you have anything to say, I doesn't know why I even ask since I knew the answer.
When can I hear you say something to me...That is why everything seen so close yet so far..
Do you still not know how I actually felt?
Maybe I still doesn't mean anything in you..
I have no more smile left...Because there aren't any hope for me to keep smiling..
It's Lamapig again, not a surprised I believed.
Just another day to be honest I doesn't know what to say today.
I have done the layout template, finally. Hope he likes it.
Also include a message in chinese. Firstly is because it's more original, secondly is because no one understand as meant to be a secret of what this blog is for.
Been listening to the radio, one of my favorite actor, Jordan Chan. Where it's announced his wife is due for their second child. They decided to named him "Xiao Chun Zhi" from his original name Chen Xiao Chun.
It's very sweet hearing that news and the name is really funny & cute. Just their style...
Hearing that news, I was smiling feeling so happy for them.. and sour at the same time.
I have always respect the style of this couple, as they doesn't care about the media and what others say about them. Doesn't worry anything that doesn't concerned them and always so in love with each other..
They always so playful and cheerful with each other and not worrying so much. I always try to be that way, that is why I always being called silly.. I wasn't silly but just think it's better to be who you are and be happy with your life and worries that came later can be resolved.
Start to feel so happy for them, and looking back at what I achieve,
After seeing these picture, I then realize
I felt this is something I can never reach....
Deep down I knew it aren't going to happen
But I doesn't know why everytime i felt like giving up,
Something push me back in...
I'm really tired, feeling I probably shouldn't try anymore.
Someone say if you love someone, you shouldn't said it.
If you really work hard, you shouldn't said it.
And I knew
If one day I stopped talking, there will be nothing left in the conversation between us.
If one day I have run of out jokes to say, there will be no laughter left.
Everyday I asked if you have anything to say, I doesn't know why I even ask since I knew the answer.
When can I hear you say something to me...That is why everything seen so close yet so far..
Do you still not know how I actually felt?
Maybe I still doesn't mean anything in you..
I have no more smile left...Because there aren't any hope for me to keep smiling..
Monday, 28 January 2013
Basic humanity
Lamapig: Monday, 28 January 2013
A tragic accident, and unacceptable action by the passer-by...
Been listening to the news about two boys aged 7 and 12, died in a fatal accident in Tampines, Singapore.
Got the newspaper and saw the tragic image, elder brother is sending his younger brother back home on a bicycle and got hit by a cement truck.
Images on the newspaper of their mother, in tears and was so upset that immediate treatment is required.
From her uniform, she works in Mcdonald. Overnight, she lost her only two children.. It's a sad tragic..
It's cruel but I hope she able to find the strength to move on, the pain is unbearable...
Image of one of the kid, as his skull got run through by the wheels of the truck and it's been spread around through Facebook. My brother told me and wanted to show me but I really doesn't want to see it.
Image of kid head that got run through by the big wheel.....Family of deceased plead all to remove the images, but it is still spreading rapidly.
It's disgusting what people do, what can you get by doing that? It's fine not doing a single thing in helping but not making it worse for the family.
Even if you do get something from it, if you have any tiny bit of humanity you would remove the image. Please just stop spreading the image.
A tragic accident, and unacceptable action by the passer-by...
Been listening to the news about two boys aged 7 and 12, died in a fatal accident in Tampines, Singapore.
Got the newspaper and saw the tragic image, elder brother is sending his younger brother back home on a bicycle and got hit by a cement truck.
Images on the newspaper of their mother, in tears and was so upset that immediate treatment is required.
From her uniform, she works in Mcdonald. Overnight, she lost her only two children.. It's a sad tragic..
It's cruel but I hope she able to find the strength to move on, the pain is unbearable...
Image of one of the kid, as his skull got run through by the wheels of the truck and it's been spread around through Facebook. My brother told me and wanted to show me but I really doesn't want to see it.
Image of kid head that got run through by the big wheel.....Family of deceased plead all to remove the images, but it is still spreading rapidly.
It's disgusting what people do, what can you get by doing that? It's fine not doing a single thing in helping but not making it worse for the family.
Even if you do get something from it, if you have any tiny bit of humanity you would remove the image. Please just stop spreading the image.
Saturday, 26 January 2013
I am fortunate to be your Grand-daughter.
Lamapig:
It's Saturday, time went so fast to me lately.
I received a message about my grandfather from my sister on Thursday night.
Grandpa in A&E emergency on Wednesday night. He had alzheimer last year, and acting strange at night is consider a routine now.
But on Wednesday night it's different, in the middle of the night when grandma and my uncle who lived there, were asleep. My grandma heard my grandpa crying, she went out and saw him flat on the ground in the hall crawling in tears. My grandma asked him what happen and he said he's in great pain and need to go to the toilet but he can't move as it's so painful he can only crawl.
My grandma then feel his stomach, it is solid hard and a big lump. Woke my uncle up and rush to A&E.
My sister works in NUH (Singapore National University Hospital) she knew the next day (Thursday) when she is at work that my grandpa is there, she messaged me at that time around in the morning. She went to visit after work.
According to the doctor they found tumor in his colon which cause him that pain and he won't be able to (lets use the word "business" which means urine and poo) do "business" and can only use a tube for now till he go through the operation.
But there is certain risk, as he is 82 years old and weak. Only way is perform a Stenting Procedure for him, which is inserting a tube in this intestine to help him able to do "business"like normal people. But if the procedure fail, he will be rush into operation immediately.
The whole time, we didn't tell Grandpa what happen to him, for his own good.
Grandpa wants to go home so badly, wants to urine for badly. He is crying and say he really want to go. But he can't. My sister was there at that time and she can't help her tears when she saw that.
Nurse and everyone there cannot do anything about him to keep in on his bed, my sister decide to call my mum to speak to him, and after the phonecall he went back to his bed quietly. Nurse wondering what was said to him, Mum said "Don't be like this, they say you are fine just need to stay in tonight and making sure you are ok, if everything is alright you can go home tomorrow"
After awhile, during the night I received another message from sister. The X-Ray is out, Doctor found that tumor might be cancer and arrange for family to come. I arrange a flight and rush back to Singapore the next day. When I'm there, he is asleep.. with a lot of families surrounding him.
I walked over, I saw my cousin
(she is same age with me who used to grew up together, since young she like to compete with me. Comparing the boyfriends we had and amount of money we made, she always ended up showing off and I always ended up losing so I'm not closed to her anymore because we are from different world as we have different view in life. She prefer being rich and center of attention and showing off her expensive branded bag, but i'm just very average person, but I know that i prefer being myself and use the money to help people)
with her expensive branded blouse, Gucci handbag and well-dressed, this is not my main concern but it's too flashy to not notice. I know i came for my grandpa so I don't really care and feel embarrassed what I am wearing.. However, she is speaking to the doctor at that time, I can't hear anything so my sister and I stood next to Grandpa..
He seen peaceful now, but the look of his sleeping face you felt he went through a lot of pain. But still we just stood there quietly and watch..
He then open his eyes, gentle smile and say..
"Have you eaten yet?" and unconscious right after..
My sister and I can't help and burst into tears, we went to corridor to try control ourselves.. But it's so hard.
Then when I went back, my cousin is there and done talking to the doctor. So i asked her, what did the Doctor says? She told me briefly and say to held a meeting with everyone outside.
She went, and gathered everyone around her with a paper in her hand saying
"Come come everyone, I going to tell you the information now"
"Ok good, I have speak to the Doctor so is my duties to tell you all now"
I wasn't there, I went to the doctor and he is showing the pictures of the X-ray to sister at that time.
He point the spot on the picture. It's on the right side of the lungs X-ray. A circle size of a 20 cents coin.
He then say, from my view of this tumor, about 80 percent based on my experience this is a cancer, however the microscope report will be out on Monday but I just telling you my view.
He continued.. If this is a cancer, it's spread to his lungs from his colon and it's spreading rapidly it is Fourth stage cancer.
My brother was behind me, and all of us repeat the word "4th stage"softly... and doctor say to advise that it's going to be a lot of pain and suffering to go through therapy after age 75, and normally it's advise to consider about letting the patient to go through peacefully instead of therapy.
After the conversation, I went to tell mum.. She actually knew something bad... She can't stand next to grandpa, she stood at the balcony and looking through the window at my grandpa and she's in tears..
we went to console her. Sister and I was upset and we know there isn't anything we could do.
It is sad as we not just wiping our own tears, we are wiping grandpa's tears as well. He has his eyes closed but he know everyone is there crying and he is sad and crying as well.
Every time i wipe his tears from corner of his eyes, double tears came out from mine...
and whispered to him, "Its going to be ok..."
My brother, sis and I went downstairs as my brother need a cigarette. We start saying how we need to not cry infront of him if not it would affect him as he will be sad.
So we went up trying to be open-minded and we doing well, till he open his eyes...
his eyeball moving around... slowly... and say again.."have you all eaten yet?" and all of us can't stop our tears again :( ....
Our grandpa and grandma always very closed to us, he is kindest man ever exist and we probably got it from him. He always tell us to be a nice person and as long we know what we do is right even though everyone is powerful, you still owe the true power of being true to yourself.
I know the chance is slim but I hope the 20% chance of him not having cancer is still there..
That is all for today, and I like to thank you for Mr. Grey, he is there talking to me on Skype and messages. I know he is very upset from what I told him, as his grandma who passed away last year the wound is still fresh.
I told Mr. Grey, thank you for being there for me, and I will always be there for you too.
Lots of love to Mr. Grey, and I love you my Grandpa no matter what happen..
It's Saturday, time went so fast to me lately.
I received a message about my grandfather from my sister on Thursday night.
Grandpa in A&E emergency on Wednesday night. He had alzheimer last year, and acting strange at night is consider a routine now.
But on Wednesday night it's different, in the middle of the night when grandma and my uncle who lived there, were asleep. My grandma heard my grandpa crying, she went out and saw him flat on the ground in the hall crawling in tears. My grandma asked him what happen and he said he's in great pain and need to go to the toilet but he can't move as it's so painful he can only crawl.
My grandma then feel his stomach, it is solid hard and a big lump. Woke my uncle up and rush to A&E.
My sister works in NUH (Singapore National University Hospital) she knew the next day (Thursday) when she is at work that my grandpa is there, she messaged me at that time around in the morning. She went to visit after work.
According to the doctor they found tumor in his colon which cause him that pain and he won't be able to (lets use the word "business" which means urine and poo) do "business" and can only use a tube for now till he go through the operation.
But there is certain risk, as he is 82 years old and weak. Only way is perform a Stenting Procedure for him, which is inserting a tube in this intestine to help him able to do "business"like normal people. But if the procedure fail, he will be rush into operation immediately.
The whole time, we didn't tell Grandpa what happen to him, for his own good.
Grandpa wants to go home so badly, wants to urine for badly. He is crying and say he really want to go. But he can't. My sister was there at that time and she can't help her tears when she saw that.
Nurse and everyone there cannot do anything about him to keep in on his bed, my sister decide to call my mum to speak to him, and after the phonecall he went back to his bed quietly. Nurse wondering what was said to him, Mum said "Don't be like this, they say you are fine just need to stay in tonight and making sure you are ok, if everything is alright you can go home tomorrow"
After awhile, during the night I received another message from sister. The X-Ray is out, Doctor found that tumor might be cancer and arrange for family to come. I arrange a flight and rush back to Singapore the next day. When I'm there, he is asleep.. with a lot of families surrounding him.
I walked over, I saw my cousin
(she is same age with me who used to grew up together, since young she like to compete with me. Comparing the boyfriends we had and amount of money we made, she always ended up showing off and I always ended up losing so I'm not closed to her anymore because we are from different world as we have different view in life. She prefer being rich and center of attention and showing off her expensive branded bag, but i'm just very average person, but I know that i prefer being myself and use the money to help people)
with her expensive branded blouse, Gucci handbag and well-dressed, this is not my main concern but it's too flashy to not notice. I know i came for my grandpa so I don't really care and feel embarrassed what I am wearing.. However, she is speaking to the doctor at that time, I can't hear anything so my sister and I stood next to Grandpa..
He seen peaceful now, but the look of his sleeping face you felt he went through a lot of pain. But still we just stood there quietly and watch..
He then open his eyes, gentle smile and say..
"Have you eaten yet?" and unconscious right after..
My sister and I can't help and burst into tears, we went to corridor to try control ourselves.. But it's so hard.
Then when I went back, my cousin is there and done talking to the doctor. So i asked her, what did the Doctor says? She told me briefly and say to held a meeting with everyone outside.
She went, and gathered everyone around her with a paper in her hand saying
"Come come everyone, I going to tell you the information now"
"Ok good, I have speak to the Doctor so is my duties to tell you all now"
I wasn't there, I went to the doctor and he is showing the pictures of the X-ray to sister at that time.
He point the spot on the picture. It's on the right side of the lungs X-ray. A circle size of a 20 cents coin.
He then say, from my view of this tumor, about 80 percent based on my experience this is a cancer, however the microscope report will be out on Monday but I just telling you my view.
He continued.. If this is a cancer, it's spread to his lungs from his colon and it's spreading rapidly it is Fourth stage cancer.
My brother was behind me, and all of us repeat the word "4th stage"softly... and doctor say to advise that it's going to be a lot of pain and suffering to go through therapy after age 75, and normally it's advise to consider about letting the patient to go through peacefully instead of therapy.
After the conversation, I went to tell mum.. She actually knew something bad... She can't stand next to grandpa, she stood at the balcony and looking through the window at my grandpa and she's in tears..
we went to console her. Sister and I was upset and we know there isn't anything we could do.
It is sad as we not just wiping our own tears, we are wiping grandpa's tears as well. He has his eyes closed but he know everyone is there crying and he is sad and crying as well.
Every time i wipe his tears from corner of his eyes, double tears came out from mine...
and whispered to him, "Its going to be ok..."
My brother, sis and I went downstairs as my brother need a cigarette. We start saying how we need to not cry infront of him if not it would affect him as he will be sad.
So we went up trying to be open-minded and we doing well, till he open his eyes...
his eyeball moving around... slowly... and say again.."have you all eaten yet?" and all of us can't stop our tears again :( ....
Our grandpa and grandma always very closed to us, he is kindest man ever exist and we probably got it from him. He always tell us to be a nice person and as long we know what we do is right even though everyone is powerful, you still owe the true power of being true to yourself.
I know the chance is slim but I hope the 20% chance of him not having cancer is still there..
That is all for today, and I like to thank you for Mr. Grey, he is there talking to me on Skype and messages. I know he is very upset from what I told him, as his grandma who passed away last year the wound is still fresh.
I told Mr. Grey, thank you for being there for me, and I will always be there for you too.
Lots of love to Mr. Grey, and I love you my Grandpa no matter what happen..
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