Thank you for your nice wishes and pictures.
I really like it.
Just another day for me, going to work and gym after.
Had instant noodles for dinner and it's nice. Gym really quiet, probably most couples busy with Chinese new year & valentines day that bump into each other?
Few couples outside a restaurant "Chopsticks"
Saw around 4 women with a bunch of flowers. Mostly roses, which I doesn't like hehe. Must cost a lot isn't it?
Well, everyday is a valentines day as long you love each other. (super old boring saying but true) So for any ladies or gentlemen who didn't have any gifts, need not worry.I'm sure your partner knows you love them as much and need not any gifts to prove it ^^. As long you doesn't bully them :P and be nicer to them every following year hehe.
Sad valentines day that can never vanished
Feeling down still after so many years (14 years), it's kinda silly but never goes away. When I'm alone at this particular time at night is when memories flashes back even though it's memories been locked away for so many years.
I had post this similar post on a valentines day 2 years ago in my previous blog, and 5 years ago in my first blog. Both posted on 14th February, valentines day.
After all these years, every valentines day.. I still never forgets you.
I still recalled.. 14 years ago of today,
I was waiting at "No Signboard Seafood" at 414 Geylang road, Singapore from 7p.m till 11.45p.m. When the waiters start getting worried as the amount of drinks I had drank and how long I been waiting..and the fact they closing at midnight.
I still remember a young waiter came to me and say, "I'm sorry, but we are closing in 15 mins, even if the person you waiting arrived now we can't serve you anything. Do you want us to give someone a call to send you back?"
I smile in tears of his kindness, shook my head and give him the money and say "Thanks, happy valentines day" and left..
With countless of missed call to him but phone is off.
I was wandering around Geylang, before I realized.. I've walked till Geylang Lorong 12.
Geylang is a well-known red light district, yes I knew that.
But didn't know it's so crowded, full of ladies dressed so little and should I say sexy with a strong mainland China ascent trying to get business.
Lots of annoying men, say to me "Are you booked? and price?"
I shake my head and continued walking..
But it gets more and more dangerous where group of men start yelling, and I heard "You really think you soo high class? I can get tons of you if I want to"
So is when I decided to leave... I know something bad happen, there is no way he would leave me like that because we know how much we meant to each other.
He vanished ever since, our old spot just 10mins away from my home. The place where I first met him, the place where he walk past everyday after work. I waited there lots of evenings but no sight of him, this time his phone is not in used anymore been cut off. I have no one I can ask about him, he is from Ipoh, Malaysia. He lived in Singapore on his own, with a brother I met couple times when he came to visit. My mum never agrees about us, she always unwillingly to hand me the phone when he called me.
Few months has gone, I has been through all thoughts what happen?
Is it something I did wrong?
Is he really leaving me or found someone better?
if so why he can't at least tell me..
Is it all lies? Maybe he just another professional sweet-talker?
He said he can't stop thinking of me since we first met,
-how shocked I am when he told me the for the first time, he actually like me since he first saw me from the group of girls with me who also liked him...despite how shocked and happy I am, I still rejected him (until the end then I agree)
-how he can't stop laughing at my expression when I open the umbrella and accidentally smack his nose which cause his nose to bleed.
-how he bought me a pack of porridge when I had a high fever, but ended up getting him to eat it.
-how I acted when 2 of my friends and try to seduce him when I'm away.
lots more but it's heart-breaking to mention more..
Time flies, 4 months seen a long journey for me but August still arrives...
I finally see a familiar face, across the road waiting by the traffic lights.
He saw me, and he waited as I walked towards him..
Short sentences that carved even till now,
You are Christine right?
Yes..Please tell me why..
He looked at me sadly..and told me about the accident..
The turnout right beside Johor when he's heading to Singapore where a truck swerve and hit his scooter and how he was announced death on the spot..
I doesn't believe him, but his tears is real I thought.
When? ... I asked sadly..
Valentines day....I'm sorry we know he's meeting you and I doesn't know how to contact you as his I-card (prepaid temp. card) phone crushed during the accident. maybe might be better for you to not know, i shouldn't tell you but..
I turned about to walked off * he then say he had something for me..
a picture of Niu, in a valentine card... handwritten chinese on back of picture, happy valentines day! my love from your someone.
It always took me awhile to think should I post or not after I reach this part,
each time i'm afraid people who read this might misunderstood the intention of me sharing this part of my hidden sadness. Might think I'm lying? trying to get sympathy? sounds like a sad movie or love movie and surreal (Trust me I know that too).
But it feels like a burden dropped every valentine, ready to move on to the next year again..Like i have mention, I doesn't mind what others think, as long I know how much this changes my life...that's good enough..
In the end I like to wish everyone happy valentines day, this day is only a made-up day. Do cherish your love one when you can. Saying I love you might be just a word, but it so precious when you can still hear it...
Lots of love, Lamapig
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