Another day, usual life back to work again.
I manage to get the comment box working, its open for everyone. I know some people love to post nasty comments just for fun, well I think maybe you need a life in a better sense? But it's ok, I can just delete and won't take it to heart so no point wasting your time ^^ . Oh yea, why is the comment box on top of each post? Not below?.. (CRIES) i dunno why sob :'(
Mr. Grey back to work today too, It's harder for him as he's been on holiday for around 2 weeks. Since before Christmas hehe. But because i'm SOOO hardworking I only get Christmas day and New year day off.
Everyone must be thinking why I call him Mr. Grey?
Book Set: Fifty Shade of Grey
Is it because of the book Fifty shade of grey? Is he a pervert? (well well it's for me to know =p)
Actually It is because his name happen to be close to it and the same sad side he have is the same as Mr. Grey.
Personally I have the book Fifty shade of grey, but I can't make myself to read it... Not because of the sexual content, it is because he let me think so much of my Mr. Grey (no not the pervert part but people who read it know what I mean i guess)
I stopped half way through and give it to my sister,
She: "Why aren't you reading it?"
Me: "No, I can't make myself to read it"
She: "Why? Is it very very violent as in sexually?"
Me: "That isn't too bad, nope it's not that. Think I'm just afraid the ending going to be bad, and sad......"
I remember I stopped at the part where Grey warned Ana, and message he said to Ana (Below is just similar things he said I can't remember what he said exactly but just in different context)
You shouldn't be with me, I'm not like normal boyfriend who can shower you with love or flowers or care. I don't even care about you the same way as them.
I don't sleep on the same bed with woman, because I won't be able to sleep. So don't expect me to do that.
You don't understand, my head.. keep saying things and dark things...Don't expect me to understand or feel for you when I can't even understand myself.
I been step on many times in my life, so now I just want to dominate people and not being push around anymore
That is when I choose to stop... maybe not the time to be reading yet, it let me recall too much and I'm too afraid but the similarity is so close... that it freaks me out during that time.
My sister finished the first book, came to me and say "Ahh now i know why don't you read it, it is quite similar..."
My sister finished the third book, keep going on how good the ending is and urge me to read it...
Lol, strange enough.. When knowing they have happy ending.. I don't wish to read it even more...
Because.....that is a book, ending is written by the author (well written of course) reality won't be the same, no matter how confidence I always bring myself to me.. Sometimes you got to accept the truth..
But my Mr. Grey, I know as he is changing so fast (in a good way) just like Christian Grey,
In the book, C.grey did things with Ana that he sworn he will never do with other woman, it confused him why he do that?
Everytime he ask himself when he did things against the rules he set before..... for her...
Slowly he realize... and I'm happy he did..
My Mr. Grey slowly did things he told me he will never do, I hope Mr. Grey won't be orange seeing this post (orange is the word I used to replace his "Stress" word)
This is a blog and I wasn't lying and by reading you should know..
Hehe, I'm just telling the reason why I call you Mr. Grey, nothing else ok? *Pat head*
I'm going to the gym and a walk, need to clear my head...
My sister message me today, say the clot the blood she found in dad's room...He coughed up lots of blood again, I told sister to help me ask him, but sis said he didn't say a single word to anyone last night..and haven't been talking to anyone much, waiting for me to come back... My dad and I are the closest, I know what he is thinking, he know what is going on and he is afraid even though he always show he is strong and doesn't worry about it but he is just trying to enjoy as much as he can... in a calm way.. and observed...
This is the main reason why I left UK to come back to Singapore, leaving Mr. Grey at the very beginning of our relationship. Left my job when I just got promoted to trainee assistant manager.. I told sis, you do know his time is running out? Sis got sad and said Please not so soon, I want him to hug our grandchildren. I smile and said to her, "I'm afraid, he can't."
After that message, I put down the phone... strong sour feelings came deep down into my heart. If there is at least something, anything I could do in return for additional few more years with dad. Yes, i mean anything.. i wasn't with him for 4 years...I know when that day come, it will be such a huge blow to me.. I won't be the same lamapig anymore, I probably move somewhere far far away, or be a nun.. I don't know how I will feel at that time... Anyway I think I should stop bragging before making this blog a DARK blog.
I'm sorry readers....doesn't mean to... Time to gym and clear my head :)
... I hope you don't have a stressful day... And Lamapig misses you today too.
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